15th
too stressed out.
For some reason, I can’t go to sleep today. I’ve been in bed for the last 4 hours, with the lights off and under the covers trying to sleep, but I can’t bring my mind to just go silent for a few minutes. Then I get up, grab my laptop and go online for a while, and try this all over again. Not working.
I’m stressed out because of my rooming situation. I feel like I’m getting deliberately screwed over, and I hate it. They’ll give BS excuses for why I can’t switch to open rooms, when there really shouldn’t be any because, um, they’re open?
On a completely unrelated note… The sort of thing that goes through my head as I drift off to sleep. (No wonder I have trouble sleeping!)
I’m the kind of person whose emotions are very clear for others to see. I can’t hide my feelings very well. If I’m mad, or sad, or excited, or anxious, whatever the feeling, it shows loud and clear. If I don’t like you, you’ll see it right away, and if you don’t, I’ll be the first to tell you. And I appreciate it when people are this honest about their feelings, even if it is somewhat blunt. Sure, it may hurt to hear things I don’t want to hear, but I’d rather have people tell me what they think than hide it and make it seem like nothing’s really wrong. There’s this certain girl in my dorm who’s a huge bitch to me for apparently no other reason than me sending a dorm-wide email asking for my pans that pissed her off. While she’s not very nice to me, I respect the way she directly told me she doesn’t like me, instead of talking shit about me behind my back and then smiling as we pass each other in the corridor. I’d rather help this girl out than those other hypocrites any day.
